What do I want? To study, for the sake of Wisdom, that I may enjoy: freedom, less cognitive overload, peace of mind, confidence, substance, and connections with the Saints, Doctors, and wise men who walked the same path before me. I pray this may be actualized, and I will fight for every minute to bring it into reality. I trust that God will figure out the details. What I know now, is that I am not wise, but a fool, and I wish to change this. I desire with all my soul, mind, power, and heart to change this.
Whatever I do, I take extremely seriously. Whatever I put my mind to, I go in 100%. The problem with me has been, that I have never known, in what direction, or path may lead me to freedom. I now know, and have discovered, that it is in private, consistent, relentless studying of the Classical Liberal Arts. The crucible of the professional certification I attained last year humiliated me; yet opened my eyes to the path that needed to be walked.
So, I am walking it. God will sort out the rest of it. Even if I die tomorrow, I was free.
Liber eram.
EAR.