What is anxiety? It seems to be an irrational and disordered fretting over contingent events. In more severe degrees, this fretting seems to phase into a kind of irascible appetite for the imposition of the will on whoever – and whatever – might effectively mutate in the next moment to conform to one’s subjective preferences. The work involved in accomplishing this, and if habitualized, seems to lead to insanity, and certainly draws one away from the solid ground of rational inquiry and classical reasoning. The tragic part of this, is that all this “controlling the outcome” yields is little to nothing substantial, positively speaking, other than a fractured and destroyed mind that was once rational. Suffering abuse and trauma at a young age seems to strongly influence a poor soul into this rabbit hole of abstraction. What I speak of is certainly not a willful positioning, for a soul that positions itself is one that prepares for the future: and not one that controls, pretending to act as if it were some kind of divine arbiter. Platonic thinking seems to amplify and worsen this path by enticing the wounded soul to gravitate to a subjective idealization of what would be, or should be perfect, and then watching it leave chaos, destruction, darkness, and shattered relationships in its wake. How can a rational mind, designed for affirmation or negation of what is, and capable of positioning for the future, possibly be told that it can control the accidentals?
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